Chapter 11
Mia’s abrupt departure from the dining room halted all laughter and Marshall stared in stunned silence at his parents and brothers.
“What happened?” Mitchell was the first one to ask. “Did somebody say something wrong?”
Edie looked across the table at Marshall who was already tossing down his napkin and rising to his feet. “Son, you’d better go see about her. I got a glance at Mia’s face as she turned away from the table and I thought she looked sick. Dear heaven, I hope my cooking hasn’t upset her stomach.”
Marshall headed out of the dining room. “Don’t worry, Mom,” he tossed over his shoulder. “I don’t think it’s anything like that. The rest of you finish dinner and I’ll go check on her.”
After checking the guest bathroom and finding the door open and the light off, Marshall hurried to the den. When he didn’t spot her there, he stepped through a sliding back door and onto a small patio. During dinner, the sun had fallen and now golden-pink rays were slanted across the backyard.
At first glance he didn’t notice the still figure standing with her back to him in the shadow of a poplar tree. But as he turned to step back into the house, a flash of her coral-colored blouse caught his eye.
Quickly, he made his way across the yard to where she was staring out at the ridge of nearby mountains. If she was aware of his approach, she didn’t show it, even when he came up behind her and gently placed his hands on her shoulders.
Through the thin fabric of her blouse, he could feel her trembling and concern threaded his softly spoken words. “Mia. What are you doing out here? Everyone is worried.”
Several moments passed and then she reached up and wiped at her eyes. The realization that she’d been crying hit him hard.
“I’m…sorry, Marshall,” she said in a raw, husky voice. “I—didn’t mean to upset your family. They’ve all been so wonderful to me. Too wonderful.”
The painful cracks in her voice struck Marshall right in the heart and he slowly turned her to face him. Tears rimmed her beautiful eyes and spilled onto her cheeks. Marshall wiped them away with the palm of his hand.
“If everything is so wonderful then why are you out here crying?”
Bending her head, Mia stared at Marshall’s boots. She’d gone and done it now, she realized. There was no way she could easily explain away her behavior. Not without giving away the past she desperately wanted to keep hidden. But he was expecting an explanation and she was so sick of the deception she’d been playing.
“I—uh—guess I just got swamped with memories, Marshall. Your family is so nice and I guess it hit me all over again that mine is gone.”
“Gone?” he repeated blankly. “I remember you saying your father died long ago.
Are you telling me that your mother has passed away, too?”
She lifted her gaze and the concern she saw in Marshall’s eyes gave her the strength to release the words bottled in her throat. “Yes. About a year ago.
She—uh—was killed in an auto accident. And I—I’ve been having a hard time dealing with—the whole thing. I miss her terribly. Her death—” She paused, swallowed, then tried to keep her voice from breaking. “Her death has left a hole in me, Marshall, and I—just don’t know how to fill it back up.”
With a gentle shake of his head, he said, “I’m so sorry, sweetheart. I know that doesn’t mean much, but I really don’t know what else to say. If I told you that I understand what you’re going through, I’d be lying. I’ve been blessed. I don’t know what it’s like to lose a loved one.”
She blinked furiously at the fresh tears that threatened to spill onto her cheeks. “My parents were like yours, Marshall. They loved each other very much and they loved me—maybe more than I realized—until they were gone. It troubles me that I didn’t appreciate them as much as I should have.”
He reached out and smoothed a hand over the crown of her head. The soothing touch caused Mia’s eyelashes to flutter down and rest against her cheeks. If only she could always have him by her side, she thought longingly. To soothe her when she hurt, to laugh with her when she was happy, to simply love her for who and what she was.
“We’re all guilty of that, Mia. I hate to admit it but there have been plenty of times that I’ve taken my family for granted and forgotten to show them how much they mean to me. Fortunately they know that I love them anyway. I’m sure your parents knew that you loved them, too.”
Over the past months Mia didn’t think her heart could hurt anymore than it already had, but the pain ripping through the middle of her chest was so deep it practically stole her breath.
“I hope so,” she choked out. “But it’s different for me, Marshall. My family…well, I wasn’t raised up like you.”
“I never expected that you were,” he countered. “Dad has always made a nice living for his wife and children, but I’m sure it can’t compare to your family’s wealth.”
She shook her head viciously back and forth and the truth, or at least part of it, demanded to be let out. “No—you have it all wrong, Marshall. I wasn’t born into wealth. Will, my father, raised potatoes and alfalfa hay and Nina, my mother, was a simple housewife. We lived in a modest farmhouse outside of the little town of Alamosa down in southern Colorado. We weren’t rich—just rich in love. It’s—” she paused long enough to draw in a deep breath and lift a beseeching gaze up to his “—it’s taken me a long time to realize that, Marshall.
Too long.”
Marshall would be lying if he said that her admission hadn’t taken him by surprise. Learning she wasn’t a born heiress was the last thing he’d expected to hear. But her stunning declaration couldn’t compare to the emotions piercing him from all directions. He’d never imagined that he could feel someone else’s pain this deeply. It had emanated from her like a tangible thing and wrapped around his heart like an iron vice. And like a flash of lightning, Marshall suddenly realized he was just now learning what it truly meant to be a doctor to the needy and a man to the woman he loved.
“Oh, Mia. I’m glad you told me. And if you think it could make me care about you less, then you’ve got it all wrong. I don’t care that you weren’t born into wealth. None of that matters. All I want is for us to be together.”
He cared about her? Dear God, maybe it didn’t matter to him that she’d come from a modest background, Mia thought. But he couldn’t begin to imagine the whole story. And he wouldn’t be nearly so understanding if he found out she’d caused her mother to turn into a drunk driver. Nina Hanover had turned to a bottle of vodka to drown out her sorrows. First to forget that she’d lost her husband, then more heavily because her daughter had deserted her for a pile of riches. Or at least, that’s the way it had seemed to Nina. Actually, Mia hadn’t ignored her mother because she’d stopped loving her. She’d simply grown weary of dealing
with Nina’s drinking and whining and pleading. It had been easy to let Janelle shield her from all of that and give her a quiet haven away from Nina’s emotional problems. But Mia couldn’t forsake Nina entirely and one day she’d agreed to meet her for lunch. She’d had plans of talking her mother into entering rehab and finding the help she needed. But Nina had ended any and all of Mia’s hope when she’d climbed behind the wheel of a car and crashed on her way to meet Mia.
“Marshall, I…” The rest of her confession lodged in her throat like pieces of poisoned bread. She couldn’t tell him the rest. Not tonight. Maybe she was wrong, even greedy for not telling him everything. But she wanted this fairy-tale time with Marshall to keep going for as long as possible. “Thank you for understanding,” she finally whispered.
For long, expectant moments, his dark gaze gently skimmed her tear-stained face and then suddenly his head was bending down toward hers, blocking out the last bit of twilight.
When his lips settled over hers, she didn’t even try to resist. The taste of his tender kiss was the very thing she needed to soothe her aching heart and before Mia realized what she was doing, she rose up on tiptoes and curled her arms around his neck.
Marshall was about to place his hands on her hips and draw her even tighter against him, but thankfully, before their embrace could turn into something more passionate, he caught the sound of footfall quickly approaching from behind.
With supreme effort, he quickly lifted his head and turned to see his mother watching them with a frown of concern.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to intrude,” she quickly apologized. “We were all getting a little worried about Mia. Is everything all right?”
Clearing his throat, Marshall arched a questioning brow down at Mia. Of course everything wasn’t okay with Mia, he realized sadly. It was going to take her a long time to recover from the recent loss of her mother. But at least for the moment her tears had dried and a wan smile was curving the corners of her lips.
Mia stepped toward Marshall’s mother. “I’m fine, really, Edie. And I’m so sorry that I ruined the last of your dinner. Please forgive me. I guess—I got a little too emotional thinking about my own family.”
Edie closed the short distance between them and wrapped Mia’s hand in a warm clasp between the two of hers. “Don’t bother yourself one minute over it. You didn’t ruin anything. We’ve loved having you. Would you like to come back in now and have coffee? I’m afraid that the twins have already dug into the brownies, but there’re plenty left.”
Mia glanced back at Marshall and all he could think about was taking up their kiss exactly where they’d left off.
“I think Mia’s had enough of the rowdy Cates brothers for one night,” he told his mother. “If you and Dad won’t mind, I’m going to take her home.”
Edie’s understanding smile encompassed both Mia and her son. “Of course we won’t mind. As long as you two promise to come again soon.”
“You can bet on it,” Marshall told her, then bent and placed a kiss on his mother’s cheek. “Tell everyone goodbye for us, will you?”
“Sure.”
Edie turned and disappeared through the patio doors. Marshall took Mia by the arm and led her around the house to where his Jeep was parked.
Before he opened the door to help her in, he gathered her back into his arms.
Then resting his forehead against hers, he whispered, “I hope you don’t mind that we’re leaving. Do you?”
The suggestive tone in his voice set her heart thumping with anticipation. “No.
I’m ready to go if you are.”
He placed a quick, but promising kiss on her lips. “I couldn’t be more ready.”
Once they were in the Jeep driving back to the resort, Mia stared, dazed, out at the darkened landscape. Marshall had said he cared about her. He couldn’t love her, she mentally argued. Could he? Especially now that he knew she wasn’t a born-and-bred heiress.
She didn’t realize he’d passed her cabin and had driven them on up the mountain to his house until the vehicle came to a final halt and she looked around her at the encroaching pine forest.
“This isn’t my cabin, it’s yours,” she stated lamely. “What are we doing here?”
He shoved the gearshift into first and pulled the key from the ignition. “I didn’t think you needed to be alone right now. And I wasn’t sure you’d invite me in if we stopped at your place.”
Her heart melting at the tender look on his face, she reached over and touched his hand with hers. “I was going to invite you in. But this is just as good.”
Leaning toward her, he slipped a hand behind her neck and pulled her face toward his. His lips were warm and searching, inviting her to forget everything but him.
Mia was about to wriggle closer when Leroy’s loud barks caused her to flinch away from him.
“Oh. Leroy scared me!” she exclaimed.
“Damn dog,” Marshall muttered. “He has no timing at all.”
“Yes, but he’s a sweetheart,” Mia crooned as she looked toward the front-yard gate. The dog was reared up on his hind legs, pawing eagerly at the wooden post where the latch was located.
Mia laughed and Marshall shot her a droll look. “Hey, beautiful, you’re confused. I’m supposed to be the sweetheart around here. Not Leroy.”
She was still laughing as they crossed the yard and entered the house with a happy Leroy trotting behind them. But the moment he shut the door and drew her into his arms, he swallowed up her chuckles with a kiss hot enough to curl her toes.
“I think Leroy is watching,” she whispered when he finally lifted his lips a fraction from hers.
“Not for long.”
She was trying to guess his intentions when he suddenly bent and scooped her up in his arms.
“Marshall!” she squeaked. “You’re going to drop me!”
“Then you’d better hang on,” he warned with a chuckle.
Flinging her arms around his neck, she clung to him tightly as he began to walk out of the living room. When his route took them down a narrow hallway it was obvious he was headed to a bedroom and she wasn’t so naive that she had to ask why. For the past few days, she’d felt the two of them drawing closer and closer, ultimately leading them onto this path and this very moment.
Seconds later, Marshall entered a room, kicked the door shut behind them, then set her on the floor. Black shadows filled the corners and shrouded most of the furniture, while faint shafts of light sifted through the windows and slashed across part of the bed and the upper half of his face. The illumination was enough to give Mia a glimpse of his heated gaze and it arced into her like a sizzling arrow.
Her heart was suddenly pounding, pushing heated blood to every inch of her body as his hands came up to cradle her face.
“You can tell me you’re not ready for this, you know,” he whispered gently. “But I hope you are.”
He was giving her the opportunity to walk away from him and the intimacy he was offering. He was giving her a moment to analyze her feelings and consider the consequences of making love with him. But Mia didn’t need the extra moment to question the rightness or wrongness of being here. She was sick of analyzing and agonizing over every decision she made, tired of guarding her true feelings. She wanted to be a woman again and for tonight that was enough to justify stepping into his arms.
Slipping her arms around his waist, she rested her chin in the middle of his chest and tilted her face up to his. “I want you, Marshall. Here with you is the only place I want to be.”
Groaning with a mixture of relief and need, he skimmed his hands down the sides of her arms. “I want you, too, baby. So much.”
Her breath caught as his head slowly lowered down to hers and then she forgot all about breathing as his lips settled over hers and his hands clasped her waist and drew her against the length of his body.
Like a desert wildfire, his kiss raged through her body, turning her insides to molten mush. His tongue pushed its way past her pulsing lips and then she was lost, groaning with abandoned pleasure as he explored the dark cavern of her mouth, the rough edges of her teeth.
In a matter of moments a tight ache started somewhere deep within her and began to spiral outward and upward until she was twisting and clinging, fighting to find the relief his body would give her.
Fueled by her heated response, Marshall continued to kiss her as his hands quickly went to work releasing the buttons on her blouse and finding his way to the warm flesh beneath. Her skin was smooth beneath his fingers. He couldn’t touch her enough as his hands slid upward, along the bumps of her ribs, then around to her spine where they climbed until his thumbs snared in the fastener on her bra.
With deft movements he unhooked a pair of eyelets and the garment fell apart, the loosened tails dangling against her back. He broke the kiss and their gazes locked as he slowly pushed the blouse from her shoulders, then slipped the straps of her bra down her arms.
Beneath the trail of his fingers, he could feel goose bumps breaking out along her skin, telling him just how much he was affecting her. As for him, he felt like an awkward teenager, touching a woman for the first time. His heart was pounding. Blood was rushing to his head, fogging his senses, filling his loins to the aching point. He’d never wanted so much. Needed so much.
He was asking himself what it could mean when the bra fell away from her breasts and the perfectly rounded orbs were exposed to his gaze. The lovely sight of puckered rose-brown nipples momentarily froze him and then slowly, seductively, he raked the pads of his thumbs across the delicate nubs.
Almost instantly Mia’s head fell back. A moan vibrated in her throat. Bending his head, Marshall slid parted lips along the arch of her neck, over the angle of her shoulder, then lower until he was tasting the incredibly soft slope of her breasts.
When his mouth finally fastened over one taut nipple, Mia was panting, thrusting her fingers against his scalp, urging him.
When he finally lifted his head, he was shaking from the inside out and wondering if he was in some glorious dream that would end at any moment. But Mia’s warm flesh brushing against his was enough to remind him that she was real and waiting to become his woman, his lover. The implication brought a tremble to his hands as he reached to undo the front of her jeans.
“Let me do this,” she whispered as his fingers fumbled with the button at her waist. “It will be faster.”
Not in any condition to argue with her, Marshall eased away from her and while he struggled to fling aside his own shirt and jeans, he darted hungry glances at Mia until she finally pushed the denim off her hips.
With his own clothes out of the way, he stood watching as she stepped from the pool of fabric. The sight of her plump breasts and tiny waist, the curves of her hips and the long firm muscles of her thighs just waiting for him to touch and taste was enough to leave him just short of speechless.
“Mia. Oh, Mia,” he whispered.
Stepping forward he lifted her onto the queen-sized bed, then followed her onto the down comforter. As he enfolded her in his arms, she pressed her cheek against his and the sweetness of her gesture pierced his heart, filling it with something warm, something that had nothing to do with sex and everything to do with love. The idea scared him, but the feeling was so thrilling that he couldn’t stop. Couldn’t look back.
“Marshall, I didn’t know how much I wanted this—you—until tonight. But when you kissed me out in your parents’ yard…I don’t know. Everything felt different—right. Does that make sense?”
At this moment nothing made sense to Marshall except the extraordinary need to kiss her, hold her, feel his body sliding into hers.
“Making sense doesn’t matter,” he said thickly. “You and me together—that’s all that matters.”
Rolling her onto her back, Marshall used the next few minutes to make a feast of the mounds and hollows of her body and each nibble, each tempting slide of his tongue sent shivers of longing down Mia’s spine. In a matter of moments she forgot everything except the desire that was surging higher and higher, begging her body to connect with his.
When she began to moan and writhe beneath him, he eased back enough to slip the scanty piece of lace from her hips. The black triangle of hair springing from the juncture of her thighs beckoned his fingers. For a moment he teased the soft curls and then, lifting his gaze to hers, he stroked lower. Her eyes widened with surprise, then closed completely as he gently, coaxingly touched the intimate folds between her thighs.
“Marshall, Marshall,” she said on a thick, guttural groan. “Don’t torment me like this. I need—”
The rest of her words stopped on a gasp as one finger slipped into the moist heat of her body. Stock still, she waited, barely breathing as he stroked and explored that secret part of her. But after a few short moments the teasing rhythm of his movements was too much for her to bear.
Crying out with a mixture of intense pleasure and pain, she reached for the boxers riding low on his hips and, hooking her thumbs in the waistband, pulled them down around his thighs.
“Make love to me, Marshall. Please.”
The urgency of her whispered plea was like throwing accelerant on an already raging fire. On the verge of losing all control, Marshall forced himself to move away from her and over to a chest of drawers where he fished out a small packet and quickly tore it open.
When he returned to her, Mia hardly had time to notice that he’d been dealing with protection. All at once his knee was parting her thighs and his hands were slipping beneath her buttocks, lifting her up to meet the thrust of his arousal.
A sudden rush of fiery sensations brought a keening moan to the back of Mia’s throat and, seeking any sort of anchor she could find, her fingers latched a tight grip around his upper arms. Bending forward, he began to move inside her and when she slowly began to move with him, he brought his lips to hers and growled out her name.
“Mia. Mia. Touch me. Love me.”
Happy to comply with his sweet request, she swept her palms over the hard muscles of his chest, down his ribs and abdomen, then back up until her fingertips lingered at his hard nipples.
With each bold foray of her hands, she heard his breath catch, felt his thrusts quicken. Frantic to keep pace with him, she wrapped her legs around his and clung to his sweat-drenched shoulders.
At some point the room around her spun away, leaving a black velvety place where only she and Marshall existed. With each rapid plunge, he drove her to a higher ledge, where her heart was hammering out of control, her lungs burning with each raspy breath.
They took the climb together, racing frantically toward the peak of the mountain where a crescent moon poured silver dust and lit their pathway to the stars.
She was straining, her body screaming for relief, when Marshall’s lips came down over hers to swallow up her cries and nudge them both over the last precipice of their journey. He drove into her like a man possessed, his hands and hips gripping her to him as he spilled his very heart into her.
His throaty groan of release launched Mia even higher and, like a rocket gathering steam, she shot straight through a bright, molten star. She cried his name as lights glittered behind her tightly closed eyelids. And then she was drifting, glowing, falling back to earth on a cloud of emotions.
When Marshall’s senses finally returned, he was still breathing raggedly and sweat was rolling into his eyes and down his face. Beneath him Mia’s body was damp and lax, her face covered with a tangle of black hair.
With a groan that sounded like it belonged to someone else, Marshall rolled to her side and reached to push the veil of hair away from her cheek. As his fingers brushed against her neck, he could feel her pulse hammering and he bent and pressed a kiss to the throb of her heartbeat.
“I’m not sure I’m alive,” he murmured. “Are we in heaven?”
The corners of his lips tilted into dreamy smile. “I think I just went there.”
Slipping a hand over her belly, he latched onto her hip bone, then rolled her onto her side and against the length of his body. After cuddling her head in the crook of his shoulder, he pillowed his jaw against the crown of her hair and closed his eyes in exhausted *******ment.
For the first time in Marshall’s life words seemed inadequate to describe what he’d just experienced. Joy was swimming around inside him, warming him like bright sunshine. Maybe that made him a sappy fool. But he didn’t care.
“I knew it would be good with us,” he murmured, then silently cursed himself for emitting such a stupid remark. Hell, good was a long way from portraying the connection he’d felt to Mia. Why couldn’t he tell her that? Because he was a chicken, he realized. Because even though she’d made love with him, his hold on her was still too fragile. Any remark suggesting a future together would send her running.
“Mmm. How did you know that? Experience?”
Sliding a finger beneath her chin, he tilted her face up to his, but the darkness of the room hid her expression. He touched the pad of his forefinger to the middle of her lips.
“Oh, Mia, I thought I knew what being with a woman was all about. But making love with you—” He shook his head, then chuckled with wry disbelief. “It felt like the first time. No—not the first time. The only time.”
Her heart wincing with regret, she lifted her fingers to his face and slid them along the length of his jawline. “You’ll feel differently about that in the light of day. Especially if you see me when I first wake up,” she tried to tease.
His arms moved around her back and hugged her even closer. “I hope that means you’re going to stay here with me tonight.”
She was wondering how to best answer that question when his arms tightened around her even more.
“Don’t bother answering,” he said, “because I’m not going to let you out of this bed for any reason. Except breakfast, maybe.”
She tried not to let the possessive tone in his voice thrill her, but it did.
Everything about the man thrilled her. And tonight she needed to be close to him, needed to let herself believe that she could be loved.
Bringing her lips up to his, she kissed him softly, temptingly. “Will you be doing the cooking?”
His sexy chuckle fanned across her face and curled her toes.
“Just tell me what you want