Chapter 6
Marshall was asking himself how a question of that sort had ever gotten into his mind when he spotted her. She was stretched out in a lounger, her long legs crossed at the knees, her shiny black hair lying in one thick, single braid against her shoulder. A book was open on her lap, but her gaze was not on the pages. Instead she was staring straight at him and the tiny smile that suddenly curved her lips hit Marshall smack in the middle of his chest.
If he’d been a smart man he would have turned and run in the opposite direction just as hard and fast as he could. But when it came to the opposite sex, Marshall was as weak as a kid in a candy shop. And Mia Smith was definitely one delectable piece of candy.
Feeling like a man possessed, he walked to her chair and squatted on his heels near the arm so that his face would be level with hers.
“Hello, Mia.”
“Hi yourself.”
Her voice was soft, sweet and husky. The sound shivered over him and for one fleeting moment he felt like a humble knight kneeling to the princess fair.
“Lizbeth told me I might find you out here. Been reading?” He glanced briefly at the hardback book in her lap, then back to her face. There was a faint hint of color on her cheekbones and lips, but for the most part it was bare of makeup, giving him a hint at the natural beauty he would see if he were to wake and find her head pillowed on his shoulder.
“Trying. But the story is rather slow. And there’s a bit too much distraction around the lodge,” she added with a pointed smile.
“That’s me. A distraction,” he jokingly replied while everything inside of him wanted to reach for her hand and bring the back of it to his lips. He wanted to taste the soft skin and watch the reaction on her face.
Folding the book together, she swung her legs over the side of the lounger where he was still crouched. She was so close that the flowery scent of her perfume drifted to his nostrils and the palm of his hand itched to slide up her bare thigh.
“Are you finished with work for the day?” she asked.
He nodded, then with a nervousness that was totally foreign to him, he asked, “Do you have plans for the evening?”
Marshall’s question made Mia realize just how unplanned her life was at this moment. Staying here at Thunder Canyon Resort was easy and pleasant. But she was living in limbo and sooner or later she was going to have to step over the dividing line.
A sardonic smile touched her lips. “I don’t really have anyone around here to make plans with.”
“You have me.”
His simple words unsettled her far more than he could ever know and, to cover her discomfiture, she rose to her feet and walked over to a low balustrade that lined the edge of the sundeck.
Slanted rays of the sinking sun painted the distant bluffs and forests a golden green. Below them, guests ambled around the manicured grounds of the resort. As her senses whirled with his blatant comment, Mia carefully kept her gaze on the sights in front of her.
“That is—if you want me.”
She hadn’t realized he’d walked up behind her until his murmured words were spoken next to her ear. She tried not to shiver as his warm breath danced across the side of her cheek.
“I—uh—enjoyed last night,” she admitted. In fact, Mia had lain awake most of the night, reliving the connection she’d felt when Marshall had kissed her. It had been more than a fiery meeting of lips. The kiss had been full of emotions so ripe with longing and sensuality that she’d felt it all the way to her heart.
And that scared her.
His body eased next to hers and she felt his warm arm encircling the back of her waist.
“So did I,” he said lowly.
Part of her started to melt as his fingertips slid back and forth against her forearm.
She was trying to think of any sensible thing to say when he spoke again.
“And I was wondering before I ever left my office if you’d like to have dinner with me again.”
All sorts of skeptical thoughts raced through her head. What could a successful man like him find attractive about her, she asked herself. She was not a raving beauty or a sexy party girl. She wasn’t even much of a conversationalist. As far as she was concerned she was totally boring. She was also a fake. How long would it take him to figure her out, she wondered dismally.
“Dinner tonight?”
He nodded and she couldn’t mistake the sensual glint in his green-brown eyes. As his gaze traveled slowly over her face, the suggestive sparkle warmed her cheeks.
“Sure. Have you eaten yet?”
If Mia had had any sense at all, she would have lied and told him she’d just stuffed herself at the Grubstake, a fast-food grill located in the lounge. At least that way she’d have an excuse to politely turn him down. But the awful truth was that she didn’t want to turn the man down. Being with him was too exciting, too tempting for her lonely heart to pass up.
“No. Before you walked out here I was thinking about grabbing a salad at the Grubstake.”
His nose wrinkled with disapproval. “You need more than rabbit food. How about letting me grill you a steak at my place? I’m pretty handy as a chef.” A corner of his lips curved up in a modest grin. “An outdoor chef, that is.”
She hesitantly studied his face. “At your place?”
The grin on his face deepened, saying she had nothing to fear, and when his fingertips reached out to trace a lazy circle on her cheek, she knew she was lost.
“Yes, my place. I live here on the resort, not far from the lodge. I’d like for you to see it. And while you’re there you can meet Leroy. He loves company.”
Seeing his home, meeting his dog—did she really want to let herself get closer to this man? Especially when she knew she could never have a meaningful relationship with him.
“I…Marshall…”
As she began to hesitate, he wrapped his arm around hers and led her away from the balustrade toward a set of steps that would take them off the sundeck. “I’m not about to let you say no,” he said. “So don’t even try.”
“Okay, okay,” she said, laughing. “But I need to go home and change first.”
He glanced pointedly at her denim shorts and pale yellow T-shirt. “Why? You look great to me and I’m the only one who’s going to see you. Besides, this is going to be a casual affair.”
Knowing she’d already lost, Mia groaned with surrender and allowed him to lead her around to the back of the massive ski lodge to the private parking area where his Jeep was parked.
The drive to his home took less than five minutes on a winding road that spiraled up the mountainside. Spruce and aspen trees grew right to the edge of the road and shaded patches of delicate blue and gold wildflowers nodding in the evening breeze.
Suddenly the road widened and the Jeep leveled onto a wide driveway. Mia leaned forward at the sight of a large log structure with a steep red-metal roof nestled among several pines and cedars.
A graveled walkway lined with large white stones led up to a long, slightly elevated porch made of wooden planks. Ferns and blooming petunias grew in baskets hanging along a roof that was supported by more thick logs. Double doors made of wood and frosted glass served as an entrance to the charming structure.
“Wow, is this the sort of housing all the employees at the resort get?”
His chuckle was almost a little guilty. “No. I’m an exception. When the resort was first being constructed, this house was actually built to rent as a honeymoon suite. But for some reason that was nixed and I ended up getting it for my digs.”
She glanced at him curiously as he parked the Jeep in front of the house. “Why? Because you’re the resort’s doctor?”
His expression a bit sheepish, he answered, “No. Grant Clifton, the manager of the resort, is a good friend of mine. We grew up together and attended the same school. It helps to have friends in high places.”
Had it helped her to have a mother in high places? Mia asked herself. She’d be lying to say it hadn’t. She was no longer scraping pennies to buy gas for a clunker car to carry her from a ratty apartment to the college campus, or wondering how she was going to find enough in the cabinets to cook a meal for her adoptive mother and herself. But in most ways Janelle’s massive wealth had only caused Mia grief and more trouble than she could have possibly imagined.
From the moment she’d found Janelle, the woman had smothered her with love and money. By themselves those two things would have been good, but along with the love and money, Janelle had also wanted to hold on to Mia and control her every step. Having spent years believing her baby girl had been stillborn, she now clung to the grown daughter that had miraculously been resurrected before her eyes.
“Well, it’s a beautiful place,” she finally said to him. “I’m sure you must love it here.”
“It’s nice” was his casual reply before he opened the door and climbed out to the ground.
After he helped her out of the vehicle and they began the short walk to the porch, Mia glanced expectantly around her. “I was expecting your dog to run out to meet us. Where is he?”
With his hand at her back, he ushered her up the three short steps to the porch.
“The backyard is fenced. That’s where Leroy has to stay. Otherwise, he’d follow me down to the lodge and harass the guests.”
“Oh,” she said warily. “He bites?”
Marshall laughed. “No. But he’ll knock you down trying to get your attention. I suppose I should send him to obedience school, but I’d miss him too much. And besides, none of us behave perfectly. Why should I expect Leroy to?
None of us behave perfectly. He couldn’t have gotten that more right, Mia thought. But if he could see into her past behavior she doubted the doctor would have that same lenient compassion toward her.
Don’t think about that now, Mia. Just enjoy the moment and bank this pleasant time in your memory. Once you leave Thunder Canyon and face your real life again, you’re going to need it.
“We all have our bad habits,” she murmured. “I’m sure Leroy is a nice boy.”
Chuckling, he opened the door and ushered her over the threshold. “You’ve got it all wrong, Mia. I’m the nice boy around here and Leroy is the animal.”
They passed through a small foyer furnished with a long pine bench and a hall tree adorned with several hats and jackets that she supposed would be needed once autumn came and the cold north winds began to blow across the mountains and plains.
“Oh, this is nice and cozy,” she commented as they walked into a long living room with a wide picture window running along one wall.
Rustic pieces of furniture fashioned of varnished pine and soft butter-colored leather were grouped together so that the spectacular mountains could be viewed from any seat. Brightly colored braided rugs covered the oak flooring while the chinked log walls were covered with paintings and photos. Potted plants sat here and there around the room and from their lush appearance Mia figured he must have a green thumb along with his eye for the ladies.
“Well, I’m sure it doesn’t compare to your home,” he said, “but it suits me.”
Pretending to study the view beyond the window, Mia looked away from him and hoped the mixed feelings swirling through her didn’t show on her face.
It was true that Janelle’s home was a mansion and large enough to hold several houses this size. But the last ratty apartment that she’d shared with Nina had been more of a home to her than any of those opulent rooms in Janelle’s house.
Funny that she could see that so clearly now when only a couple of years ago she’d believed Janelle was welcoming her into a castle in paradise. Dear God, she’d been so naive, so gullible, she thought.
“I think it’s beautiful,” she said, then turned to him and smiled in spite of the tears in her heart. “Where’s the kitchen? I’ll help you get things started.”
“Whoa, slow down, pretty lady. We’re going to relax and have a drink first. That is, after I change out of these work clothes. Why don’t you have a seat and I’ll be right back.”
She was far too nervous to simply sit while she waited for him to return.
Clasping her hands behind her back, she said, “I think I’ll just wander around the room and see how good you are about keeping things dusted.”
“Lord, I’d better hurry,” he said with a laugh and quickly darted through an open doorway.
Once he was gone from the room, Mia ambled slowly along the walls, curiously inspecting the many paintings that depicted the area and the cherished photos that were carefully framed and lovingly displayed. Eventually she discovered one of four smiling boys and an adult man, all of them dark-haired and all possessing similar features. The group had to be the Cates brothers and their father.
As she quietly studied their smiling features, she felt a pang of total emptiness in her heart. If Mia had been lucky enough to have siblings, her life would have no doubt taken a different track. Certainly she wouldn’t have felt such a driving need to search for her birth mother. And with a sibling to lean on, Mia mightn’t have been so profoundly influenced by Janelle. But ifs didn’t count. And she’d not been as blessed as Marshall Cates.
Moments later, Marshall stepped through the door and spotted Mia at the far end of the room. Just seeing her there filled him with strange emotions. He’d never invited one of his girlfriends here before and he wasn’t exactly sure why he’d felt compelled to blurt the sudden invitation to Mia. Something about her seemed to make him lose all control and throw out all the dos and don’ts he carefully followed with other dates. The fear that he might be headed for a big fall niggled at the back of his mind, yet the sight of her slim, elegant body standing in his living room was somehow worth the risk.
Obviously lost in his family photos, she didn’t hear him approach until he was standing directly behind her. Resting his hands lightly on her waist, he said in a teasing voice, “I see you found the Cates brood. What do you think? That we could pass for the wild bunch?”
She didn’t answer immediately. Instead, she turned and gave him a smile that was wobblier than anything. The glaze of moisture in her eyes completely dismayed him.
“You have a nice-looking family, Marshall,” she said huskily. “You must love them very much.”
Before he could say anything, she eased out of his grasp and stepped around him.
As Marshall turned to follow, he could she was wiping a finger beneath her eyes.
The image hit him hard and he was stunned to discover his throat was knotted with emotion. Why would seeing a photo of his family affect her like this? he wondered. And why was her tearful reaction tearing a hole right in his chest?
Clearing his throat, he caught her by the shoulder and gently pulled her to a standstill. “Mia? Are you okay?”
She lifted her face up to his and the smile he found plastered upon her delicate features was really just a cover-up and they both knew it.
“Of course I’m okay. I…I just get silly and sentimental at times. Don’t pay any attention to me. Women get emotional. You ought to know that, doc.”
Of course he understood women were emotional creatures, but as far as he could remember none of his dates in the past had ever shed a tear in front of him. The women he squired were more likely to have fits of giggles, a sign he must be dating good-time girls, he thought, then immediately wondered why that fact should fill him with self-disgust.
He glanced back at the photo of his family. Then, looking questioningly to her, he asked, “Do you have siblings?”
Shaking her head, she said, “No. I’m an only child.”
She tried to smile again and this time her soft lips quivered with the effort.
Marshall was stunned at how much he wanted to pull her into his arms and soothe her. Not kiss or seduce her, but simply quiet her troubled heart. Something strange was definitely happening to him.
“I’m—sorry, Mia,” he murmured. Then, quickly deciding he needed to put an end to the soppy moment between them, he urged her forward. “Come on,” he said a bit gruffly. “Let’s go have a drink and start dinner. I don’t know about you, but I’m famished.”
She seemed relieved that he’d suddenly changed the subject and by the time they reached the kitchen, she appeared to have pulled herself together. Marshall did his best to do the same as he went to the cabinet where the glasses were stored.
“Would you like a beer or a soda? I have a bit of everything stashed around here,” he told her.
After a long pause, she answered. “I—uh, I really don’t care much for alcohol.”
Marshall looked over his shoulder to see she was resting her hip against the kitchen table, her long bare legs were crossed and she was studying him through lowered lashes. The provocative sight forced him to draw in a long, greedy breath of air.
“Oh. Since you visited the lounge, I didn’t figure you had anything against drinking.”
“I—” suddenly she straightened away from the table and glanced at a spot over his shoulder “—I have a weak cocktail on occasion. And I don’t mind other people enjoying themselves. But it bothers me when it’s abused.”
Had she had trouble with overdrinking herself, Marshall wondered, then quickly squashed that question. She didn’t seem the sort of woman to lose control over anything—even though that kiss they’d shared at the ice rink had been hot enough to sear his brain cells.
“Well, unfortunately we humans abuse a lot of things. Even food,” he said.
“And people,” she added in a small voice.
“Yeah, and people,” he grimly agreed, then quickly shrugged a shoulder and grinned. “But we’re not going to ruin our evening together by fretting over the ills of the world. Why don’t I fix you a soda and I’ll have a beer?”
Her smile was grateful. “Sounds good. Let me help.”
Happy to change the solemn mood, Marshall gave her a glass to fill with ice then showed her where a selection of sodas was stored in the pantry. Once they had their drinks in hand, he ushered her out the back door and onto a wide deck made of redwood planks.
Almost instantly, she heard loud happy barks and turned around to see a stocky dog with a bobbed tail bounding onto the deck and straight at them.
“Leroy! Don’t even think about doing your jumping act,” Marshall warned the animal. “You sit and I’ll introduce you to our guest.”
The blue-speckled dog seemed to understand what his master was saying and Mia was instantly charmed as Leroy sat back on his haunches and whined happily up at her.
“Oh, you’re gorgeous,” she said to the dog, then glanced questioningly at Marshall. “Is it okay if I pet him?”
Marshall laughed. “That’s what he’s waiting for. But beware. He’ll smother you if you let him.”
Placing her soda on a small table, Mia leaned down and with both hands lovingly rubbed Leroy’s head. “You’re just a teddy bear,” she cooed to the dog. “I’ll bet you wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
“Maybe not a fly,” Marshall said with amusement, “but he’d love to get his teeth around a rabbit or a squirrel.”
Mia stroked the dog’s head for a few more moments then picked up her soda.
Marshall waited until she’d settled herself on one of the cushioned lawn chairs grouped on the deck before he took a seat next to her.
Leroy crawled forward to Mia’s feet, then rested his muzzle on his front paws.
Smiling affectionately at the dog, she said to Marshall, “I’ll bet he’s a lot of company for you. Have you had him long?”
“Close to two years. I got him not long before I came to work here at the resort.”
Mia glanced over at him and felt her heart lurch into a rapid beat. She’d been around handsome men before, but there was some indefinable thing about Marshall that sparked every womanly cell inside of her. It was more than the nicely carved features and the ton of sex appeal; there was a happiness about him that filled her with warm sunshine, a twinkle in his dark eyes that soothed the gaping wounds inside of her. Being with him filled her with a sense of worth, something she’d not felt since her father had died years ago.
Like Marshall, Will had been a happy man with a love for life. He’d always made a point of telling Mia that she was special, that she could do or be anything she wanted. He’d made her smile and laugh and look at the world as a place to be enjoyed. When she’d lost him, she’d also lost her self-confidence and security.
But she wasn’t going to think about that tonight.
“When was the resort built? There’s so much to it that I figured the place had been here for several years.”
Marshall shook his head. “Mr. Douglas didn’t start building Thunder Canyon Resort until after gold was discovered in the Queen of Hearts mine, and that was about two years ago.”
“Wow. He must have lit a fire under the contractors to have gotten the place up and running in such a short time.”
“Yeah, well money talks and having plenty of it makes it easier to get things done quickly. Did you know there’s a golf course in the makings, too? Construction is supposed to start on it next summer. Maybe when you come back to Thunder Canyon for another vacation we can play a game together. Have you ever played?”
Golf? Mia almost wanted to laugh. As far as she was concerned that was a rich man’s sport. Even when Will, her father, had still been alive, the Hanovers hadn’t been well off. The potato crops he’d harvested every year had been enough to keep them comfortable but not enough for luxury. Then after Will had died, she and Nina couldn’t have afforded a set of used clubs from a pawnshop, much less the fees to belong to a country club. That was the sort of life Janelle enjoyed. It was the sort of life she wanted Mia to experience. But try as she might, Mia couldn’t make herself comfortable with Janelle’s money or lifestyle.
How could she, when everywhere she looked she saw Nina Hanover’s troubled face?
“No. I—Golf was never an interest at my home.” At least that was the truth, she told herself.
The crooked smile on his face melted her. “Well, that will give me a good reason to get you out on the course and teach you.”
If she ever returned to Thunder Canyon, Mia thought grimly. What would he think if he knew she was only here at the resort because of a missed turn on the wrong road? That she was running from herself and hiding from her mother? God, she couldn’t bear to imagine how he would look at her if he knew the truth. That her actions had caused her mother to drink and then climb behind the wheel of a car.
Trying to shake the disturbing thoughts away, she sipped her soda and glanced around the small yard fenced with chain link. On the west side three poplars shaded them from the red orb of the sinking sun. To her left, in one corner of the grassy space, a blue spruce towered high above the roof of the house. Even from a distance, the pungent scent of its needles drifted to her on the warm breeze.
Near one end of the deck was a doghouse made with traditional clapboard and shingles. Nearby, a small wading pool meant for children was full of water—for Leroy’s amusement, she supposed. A few feet farther, in the middle of the yard, a black gas grill was positioned near the end of a redwood picnic table.
The only thing missing in the family-friendly setting was a colorful gym set and a couple of laughing kids playing tag and wrestling with Leroy. The dreamy picture floated through her mind and filled her heart with wistful longing.
Would there ever be a place like this for her? she wondered. Would there ever be a man who could love her and want a family with her in spite of her faults?
“Mia. Are you okay?”
His voice finally penetrated her thoughts and with a mental shake of her head, she glanced at him. Apparently she’d been so lost in her daydreams that she’d not heard his earlier remarks.
“Oh. Sorry. I was just thinking…how quiet and pleasant it is here on the mountainside.” Her expression turned wry. “But to be honest, this is not the bachelor pad I expected to find.”
His eyes wandered over her face as he grunted with amusement. “What were you expecting? A round bed and mirrors on the ceiling?” His eyes crinkled at the corners. “Maybe I should remind you that you haven’t seen my bedroom yet.”
He was teasing and yet just the mention of his bedroom was enough to make Mia jump nervously to her feet and rub her sweaty palms down her hips. “Uh—maybe we should start dinner. I’m actually getting hungry.”
Marshall set aside his empty beer glass, then slowly rose from the lawn chair.
It was all Mia could do to stay put as he closed the short distance between them.
“Mia, Mia,” he said softly as his hands slipped over the tops of her shoulders.
“You really do think I eat women for breakfast, lunch and dinner, don’t you?”
Embarrassed now, her gaze dropped to her feet. “Not exactly. But I’m sure you’ve had plenty of—female friends up here and—”
Before she could finish, his forefinger was beneath her chin, drawing her face up to his. “You’re wrong, Mia. Very wrong. Yes, I’ve had plenty of female friends over the years. But not one of them has been here at my home. Until you, that is.”
Something deep inside her began to quiver and she didn’t know whether the reaction was from the touch of his hand upon her face or the surprising revelation of his words.
“Marshall, you don’t have to tell me something like that. I mean—I’m not expecting special treatment from you.”
Frowning now, his hand fisted and his knuckles brushed the curve of her cheekbone. Everything inside Mia wanted to close her eyes and lean into him. She wanted to taste the recklessness of his lips again, feel the strength of his arms holding her tight, crushing her body against his.
“You think I’m lying, don’t you?”
Her head twisted back and forth until his fingers speared into her hair and flattened against the back of her skull. With his hands poising her face a few inches from his, everything in her went completely still. Except for her heart and that was beating as wildly as the wing of a startled bird.
“Marshall—it doesn’t matter what I think.”
“Doesn’t it?”
She swallowed as emotions threatened to clog her throat. “Soon I’ll be gone and you and I will probably never see each other again.”
Even saying the words brought a wretched loneliness to the deepest part of her heart and she suddenly realized she was in deep trouble with this man. It was painfully clear that he was becoming a part of her life, a part she didn’t want to end.
“Mia,” he said in a gravelly whisper, “when are you going to stop thinking about leaving and start thinking about staying?”
She couldn’t stop the anguished groan in her throat. “Because I—Oh, Marshall, there’s nothing to keep me here.”
Mia had hardly gotten the words out when she saw a wicked grin flash across his face and then his lips were hovering over hers.
“What about this?”
His murmured question wasn’t meant to be answered. At least not with words.
Mia closed her eyes and waited for his kiss.